I gave up on freelance writing more times than I would care to admit. The number one reason was and always has been that I have to take care of my child. Just when I get the best writing gigs I can ever hope for, things at home start to go ugly. So I had to throw my hands up in the air and go back to being a full-time parent.
As I end my days in utter exhaustion, I would dream about going back to writing again. To have enough time to sit down and pitch an article. To start a blog. To write a book. Oh, the many things I would do if I wasn’t busy raising a small person. There were so many nights where I have given up trying to believe that I owned my time. It certainly didn’t feel like it.
But — there were other nights when hope was stronger than my broken spirit. This glimmer of hope seems to be all the universe needs from me. It’s like someone, somewhere was just waiting for me to make the first move. So when I answer a job ad in the middle of the night, I get a positive reply the next morning.
All I needed to do was to submit that pitch. Send that e-mail. Pick up the phone. And just like that, I was back to the freelance writing game.
Can it be? I was ready to quit freelance writing, but it can’t seem to quit me. That doesn’t mean I’m someone special. Far from it. They say luck comes to those who work hard enough for it. Maybe that’s what happened. Or maybe it’s perfect timing. Who knows?
The point is: life will always get ugly. Don’t let it get in the way of doing the work you love. Life can suck — but you don’t have to let it win. Fight back. Take what you want from it. If you’re lucky, things will get better. And you won’t feel like a complete loser.
What I’ve learned is that you can only find a few things in life that you still want to do no matter what else is going on. It will always find you if you don’t let it go.
Do you feel this way about freelance writing? Or is something always holding you back? Share your thoughts in the comments below!